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MUSIC IS LIFE.
WILL BE BACK. (:
♥ Thursday, October 29, 2009
if you see it too
school's all right i guess,
it's not as bad as it may seem to attend classes alone (:
it's how you see things, yeah?
3 days of BANG! ticket booth duties,
plus 1 evening of BANG! rehearsal.
now im really drained.
i should get more sleep when i can.
im keeping my fingers crossed about many things,
i afraid to think/imagine.
please, oh please,
let things work out fine!
oh gosh,
i think i have too many things at the back of my mind now.
but i dont want to sort them out either,
i fear getting the picture so clear.
but at the same time, i wish to know.
how contradicting.
11days,
& so?Labels: bacomm, life
loved; 12:54 AM
♥ Thursday, October 22, 2009
to you, y.z.m
hey,
today i saw you on a show,
& memories ran through my head on fast forward.
it's good seeing you doing what you do best,
& i know you will go far with it.
i remember how we met,
how shy we were (especially you).
i remember how we chatted like no tomorrow,
how we didnt want to go to sleep.
i remember those crucial moments of ours in lives,
& how we stood by each other.
i remember how we part,
how we decided it would not work out.
i remember how we met again,
but things were all messed up.
i guess it's all good,
no one believed we would work out anyway,
& we proved them right.
for quite awhile,
i lost news of you,
but it's good to hear from you again.
i still miss your mom,
but as long as i know she's all well now.
i hope you found great love (:
you probably will not get to see this message,
but it's okay as long as i know you're fine,
as long as i get to see you dance again.
Labels: (:, love
loved; 5:56 PM
♥ Tuesday, October 13, 2009
make the best out of everything (:
yeah, im up in the wee hours once again.
im like super engrossed & addicted to the things i can be doing lately.
partly because ive found part of me back,
but im guessing,
you'll probably not like it,
well /shrugs.
(the attitude is back in the house, yeah.)so i've gone through all my blog links,
remove some & hide some.
no hard feelings people, if i chose to remove yours (:
i've also removed all the music on my blog,
will put them back on,
when im done updating
(that is, if i ever feel like doing so.)facebook is a mess right now.
what's up with people adding like nobody's business?
anyway, i dont even think my profile photo is cool.
& if you wanna get to know some big shots,
you need to choose another path, not mine.
:D
so i think i've been missing out on the world,
& vice versa.
im currently addicted to watching
big brother USA,
& i have no reason why.
also, i have completely shut up.
i didnt lose my voice,
but i think i should give it a break.
it's going to be a pain not to sing,
but it's for the better right now (:
take it as a
meditation & preseverance training.
wordy blog post again.
well,
nobody cares (:
27days.
loved; 3:47 AM
♥ Tuesday, October 06, 2009
thanks, but sorry.
facebook's a little congested these days.
people are doing funny stuffs over a stupid photo.
(& some other over connections.)thanks for the support,
but no thanks.
my life's based on everything that's real.
so strangers, please think twice before deciding to hit the button (:
i would like to meet new people,
but nothing materialistic.
Labels: facebook
loved; 6:49 PM
♥ Friday, October 02, 2009
hey, im talking to you.
i neeeed to share this song.
because, this is so so close to my heart.
in fact, i actually feel like this IS me.
this is what i am all the time,
& finally a song that represents how i feel so much.
i wanted to highlight parts of the lyrics where i feel really strong about,
like what i would do for other lyrics,
but i realised, i ended up highlighting every single line.
i will attempt to do a direct translation,
so you can understand directly how i feel.
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张惠妹 - 分生Zhang Hui Mei - Fen Sheng一个我像不会累一直往前
一个我动弹不得伤心欲绝
我不确定 几个我 住在心里面
偶尔像敌人 偶尔像姐妹
(there's this me that can just keep going & not feel tired at all,& another me who is hurting so much that i can barely move.im not sure how many different persons live within my heart,sometimes they are foes, sometimes like sisters.)一个我在网路上朋友一堆
一个我在房间里独自面对
灰色的音乐 塞满黑夜 High的像麻醉
好让翻搅的胃 安静一点 忘了全世界
(there's this me who has lots of friends over the internet,& another me, who locks up in her room feeling lonely.listening to the music through the night, feeling numb from being high,so that i can get some peace from the rest of the world.)*
分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼
越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面
不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂
(the emotional tears before schizophrenia, & the coldness after,the more i love, the more i guard against, just like a weak porcupine.the heartbreaking moments during schizophrenia, & the strong front after,im not happy, im not sad, the emotions within building up like a mime, waiting to explode.)
一个我相信用心会被感觉
一个我大喊真心会被欺骗
开始的热烈 不停奉献 后来剩决裂
谎言吞噬了心 带来刺痛 撕裂的蜕变
(there's this me, who believes that as long as i make the effort, it can be felt,& another me, who says her sincerity has been used & cheated.the warmth at the beginning, continuous devotion, leading to only rupturelies has engulfed my heart, bringing only stabbing & tearing pain while morphing.)* *
Labels: lyrics, myself
loved; 2:21 PM
